Updating

So after a brief absence from the blog I have somehow managed to blag myself a full time job. It's one of those 9- whenever it's done jobs with a salary and car and  phone and all the stuff that goes with a proper job...including the ability to think which is hard in itself these days.

So two surprising things have sprung to mind 

1. The fact that I have managed to get this job in the first place particularly as I thought I had turned to mush and only capable of talking about children and  farm animals. 

and 2. having been out of the job market so long I have not been cast aside as just being a housewife and get invited for the interviews in the first place.

If I can get a job after 7 years of twiddling about, then it shows that there is hope for all housewives out there if they ever feel able...or can be even bothered to return to work!

I asked the husband what he thought about me returning to full time work, and whether he wanted me to. 

He said he didn't want me to work at all as it means that he has the freedom to do what he wants whenever he wants. He can work late and come and go without a second thought about anyone else. (he did say this was a selfish thought though!)

So it appears that I have been a victim of my own success. My ability to run the house, grow the children and run all around the place as their single parent because my husband works long hard hours and is often away, means that my husband works long hard hours and is often away.

If I had failed and not coped then he may actually have decided to come home on time once in a while. 

All I ever wanted was for him to be home sometimes, I can't believe I didn't realise his absence was actually my fault.